I think it’s safe to say I’m obsessed with myself. Like if something has nothing to do with me, I don’t care. Okay, I wouldn’t say I don’t care… there are plenty of things going on in my friends and family lives that I DO care about, but as far as gossip goes… I just don’t care. Like I’ll be walking in the mall with friends and they will all notice some time of wrong going on with someones outfit, or someones extra big ass, etc… and I won’t notice unless you point it out. Or it can be, like one of my friends’ told me, I’m just wreck-less and always so unaware of my surroundings. But generally speaking if something has NOTHING to do with me I just don’t care. In my head it’s always me, me, me!

But is that so wrong? I’ve been told that I’m selfish. But is that really so bad? As much as I am selfish I think I am very giving. What’s so wrong with putting myself first all the time? I feel like NO ONE else in this world can ever truly put you first other than yourself. If I don’t look out for me who will? If I don’t DEMAND superiority who will give it to me? People tell me all the time I’m a little brat. But it’s like with children, if you ALLOW them to be a brat, they will be.  If people always give me my way, do things to please me, etc… there’s no one to blame but themselves. I didn’t put a gun to your head. You ALLOWED me to be the brat you claim I am. I feel like you have to DEMAND how you want to be treated. I run around acting like I’m one of Nicki Minaj’s barbies – and people treat me like I am one! (I was only kidding about that, sorta… LOL)

So what is everyone’s feelings about being self obsessed/selfish? Do you think it’s always a bad thing? Is it so wrong to always want to put yourself first?

Today was my day off but I got called into work. I decided to go since I really didn’t have anything else going on today. I need a life – PRONTO!

Anyhoo I need to make a run to Walmart to buy a few things but I’m tired. Maybe I shall wait for the morning? Since even if I go now, I still have to go back there tomorrow to pick up some pictures during normal hours.

As far as online shopping goes I ended up ordering the stuff from SugarPill that I wanted! Originally I was going to buy 2 of the 3 palettes they have and all of the pigments but settled on 2 each of the 2 palettes that I wanted (one set for me and one set for one of my best friends, for her birthday, since I know she really wanted these!). She’s lucky I like her and wasn’t being selfish because I DEFINITELY contemplated not getting her the palettes and adding all the pigments to my cart LOL. Just kidding!

Then, as anyone who knows me will tell you, I have this weird QVC addiction. They make everything look so good! So anyhoo, this past week I was seriously considering FINALLY purchasing my damn Clarisonic. And I swear, as I was on Sephora’s website looking at it I saw a tweet from @Clarisonic saying their Mia was going to be QVC’s ‘Today’s Special Value’. So I waited until midnight and placed my order. I bought it in Turquoise for $119! It’s usually $150. Hehe. Plus it was free shipping! Thennnn, being that I really wanted the Clarisonic full-size body version, I went ahead and ordered that one too. So yes, I have two of them coming in the mail. I’m a sucker for having both “full size” and “travel size” version of things. I often regret selling my travel size T3 blow dryer. Every time I travel I want to kick myself!

Then I finally ordered my roommates birthday present. I’ve been meaning to do it for 2 months now and decided to finally just go ahead and order it. I was annoyed by her the other day and was like, “Fuck it, not ordering it!”, but then got over it LOL. I got her a customized ipod nano. It is kinda pricey for a gift that you would give a friend but if I were to ask her to buy me something in that price range on any given day she probably would. So I don’t mind.

And not to mention all the clothes I bought the past week. Geez I swear I was on a MISSION this week. This is what happens when I don’t shop for a while. I explode, go to the mall, and just buy EVERYTHING!

So yeah, pictures of everything coming sometime this week when everything has been delivered. I also took a picture of EVERYTHING in my makeup collection. I uploaded the pictures to Flickr already but they are currently private. I am waiting until my new things come in, and to take some pictures of a few things I didn’t, before I post the link to it.

In other news, I was in Georgia Saturday and Sunday visiting my friend Latorria. She sucks for moving back to GA. Now every time I want to see her I have to drive 3 hours. Oh, and… I got THE funniest letter of LIFE on Saturday. I won’t even get into that, but damn it was funny as hell. People just never cease to amaze me. Anyhoo, good night!

And I’ve been stalking the sugarpill website. Everything on there is so pretty. I’m a hop and skip away from ordering half the website. I just want it all! And not to mention all the new stuff at work. There is so much shit I have on hold. I’m actually proud of myself with the things I put on hold though – it’s a lot of colors I normally wouldn’t pick out for myself, but did… and I love it!

Makeup is my crack I tell you!

Well, vacation was… interesting. I went up north with my roommate and her mom. We went to Baltimore, Atlantic City, Hartford, and NY. We did a bunch of random stuff and I watched three musicals: Next to Normal, Fela!, and American Idiot. Next to Normal was hilarious, and had a lot of memorable lines (“Valium is my favorite color!”). And that damn “I’m alive” song was stuck in my head for a while. Fela… let’s see, the dancing and costumes were really nice, and I liked WATCHING it. But I can’t tell you what the hell the musical was about. I kinda didn’t like how the musical was narrated throughout. American Idiot was good! Minus the main character spitting all over everyone (we were front row). But I think it’s something every young adult would enjoy. You can relate to it. My roommates mom didn’t like it so much. But I think it’s because she’s older.

While in Baltimore and NY my roommate and I got to meet some people we know online! ROFL at us telling Steph’s mom we were going to China Town and ending up in Brooklyn to visit our friend Kisha!

Then a few days after I got back from up north my family and boyfriend came down for a week. We went to all 4 Disney parks in one day. We do this every year. We also went to Universal Studios and Islands. I went on the new Harry Potter ride. Scary as hell I tell you! My eyes were closed half of the time. Too much creepy shit popping up in your face. There were lines for every store in HP world. I managed to buy the ‘Harry Potter’ wand. I really wanted Hermione or Sirius Black but they were sold out indefinitely or something. Or at least the lady told me, “We’re completely sold out. The only way to get them is online.” However, I’m sure that’s just the general answer because most of the people who go to Universal are tourists. I live in Orlando and own an annual pass LMAO. The next time I go I will see if they have them. I mean I can just order it online but it’s not the same ROFL. At the end of the week I went to Miami for my cousin/God sisters’ 21st birthday party. That was a lot of fun. Also, until that week, only my mom and siblings had met my boyfriend. That week he got to meet my dad and entire extended family. They like him and he likes them so that’s good!

But other than that life has been decent. I feel broke as hell. Ever since Jan/Feb I’ve been feeling broke. One week I was blowing my check on clothes I didn’t need and then the next week I was scrapping for change. Ever since I moved I tell you! But I’ve figured out a plan (sorta) to get back on my A-game money wise. Hopefully everything falls through. If not, it was worth the try!

Two nights ago I was looking at old pictures of myself. My outfits were not repeated NOT ONCE. I had matching shoes, bags, and accessories for EVERYTHING. I constantly switched things up. It actually looked like I knew how to dress. Lately I just wear a pair of jeans, a shirt, and some sandals or flip flops. What has my life become? When did I stop caring? I mean, I still care. I always look decent walking outside the house – but damn, I use to be ON POINT with my shit. I guess that’s why whenever my roomie tells I’m dressed up I look at her crazy. Because I feel like I’m not dressed. But then again, when I was living in Miami and just moved from there… I was still use to how Miami was. In Orlando, and just Central FL period, people don’t seem to care as much. And I guess that rubbed off on me.

Work is work. I love my co-workers so I never really dread going to work. Plus, I work in a makeup store. So I get to do what I do at home anyway – play in makeup all day!

Anyhoo, I’m sleepy as hell and I need to wake up in 6 hours to get ready for work. Good night!

Yesterday I went to Movie Stop with Stephanie and Latorria.  We combined our purchase together and in total spent more money than anyone should on DVD’s. Stephanie and Latorria are into movies. I’m into TV shows. It’s like an addiction. Once you own one season you need to own them all. I think I’m going to start a list of DVDs I want as a page on here to keep track of what I need want.

Stephanie’s birthday is Sunday and we’ve been trying to make plans but she didn’t know if she would be here or not. She finally made her final decision two days ago that she would be here. But by then work schedules were already made, etc. I still have something planned though.

Tuesday (July 20th) I’m flying into Baltimore and then I’m hitting up Atlantic City and New York and who knows where else for at least 5 days. I’m going to see if I can switch my schedule around some more to get an extra day or two. But my “real” vacation starts on the 29th. August 30th some of my aunts, uncles, and cousins are coming from Miami and Palm Bay to Orlando for a week. My boyfriend Adrian also comes August 31st for a week. This should be interesting. Then the weekend of the 6th we’ll all be in Miami. So I’ll be all over the place the next two weeks. And in September I should be going to Hawaii for about 3 weeks. Not sure if that will fly over with my manager. If not I’ll go for like 2 weeks. I usually get home sick around the one week mark anyway.

Ohhh I got a rabbit and 4 fish. Stephanie and I need a hobby or something lol. We impulse buy the most random things. At least I’ve layed off buying so much makeup… somewhat. lol.

Best Blush Brand: NARS! I’m in love with their blush. If they weren’t $28 each I’d own them all. The next one on my list to get is Albatross highlighter. Runner-up is MAC. My all-time favorite everyday blush is from MAC, Notable. I even have back ups saved at work.

Best Eyeliner Brand: Urban Decay 24/7. This is the one I reach for the most. It goes on creamy smooth and lasts all day. And whatever formula Smolder and Feline is from MAC, I love those.

Best Eyeshadow Brand: MAC! They have every color possible and great payoff, especially for the price. I never understand when people say MAC is expensive. Have you seen the price of things in Walmart lately?

Best Lipstick Brand: I own mainly  MAC lipstick so I will go with MAC for my answer. The Maybelline Colorsensational lipsticks are really nice too. They go on smooth and last a long time.

Best Lipgloss Brand: I like CARGO. Their glosses give you just enough color and aren’t too thick.

Best Foundation Brand: MUFE HD for liquid. MAC studio fix for powder.

Best Nail Polish Brand: I like OPI.

Let’s see -  I’ve picked up a semi-drinking habit. The first time I got drunk EVER was in Febraury and since then I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve been drunk. After the last time I don’t think I will be drinking for a while though. It was just a mess. I don’t remember half of it. I just know I said and did a lot of embarassing and/or mean shit. And there’s more to it but I won’ t expand because really I’m just tired of hearing about it.

But despite me being annoyed all the time I’m actually in a really happy place right now. I get annoyed with people here and there but I’m good.

Yesterday I don’t remember doing shit but eating. Me and Stephanie went to McDonalds and bought a shit load of food we didn’t eat. Then later on we went riding around wasting gas like we do damn near everyday (and then wonder why we always at the gas station). We did that for an hour, picked her friend Rock up, proceeded to do the same thing, ended up at Miami Subs, then went home. So yeah – basically I just ate and rode around the whole damn day. Sad.

Anyways, this was my first real post and it’s already a book length. I’m going to sleep!  Happy Independence Day! I work later today so I probably won’t do shit. I’m not a fan of watching fireworks though. I just like setting that shit on fire.

I usually talk about makeup, shopping, and other random materialistic and self absorbed type stuff. Everything else is for the birds.